Friday, April 11, 2008

TGIF!

Even though I don’t work outside the home, I often look forward to Friday.  It’s something that never changes no matter whether you work from home or not.  It used to be that I would look forward to Friday because it meant no more work, but now that I work the weekends so often it doesn’t count much towards that But at least now I have another reason to look forward to Friday. It’s weigh-in day! 

Today I got on the scale and I’m down another 2.2 pounds!  I have been walking everyday and really watching what I am eating… at least since my breakthrough So, I expect a big loss next week, but for now I’m thrilled with my 2.2 pounds.  Now that I’ve given up my Weight Watchers subscription I actually have to manually write it down - BY HAND!  OMG - handwriting??  What the heck is that?  Does anyone know if SparkPeople allows you to plug in your weight or if they keep track of it?  If not SP, are there any other free programs that you all use to track your weight?  Not that I expect the nifty graph like Weight Watchers, but I would like a place that says how much I’ve lose (or gained) when I enter my weight.  It’s something small, but it was the main reason I was holding on to Weight Watchers as long as I did.  That and I would do my points like twice a week, lol.  But still, I loved that they would say hey, you lost, congratulations!  LOL - it’s the little things that amuse me. 

Well, I hope you have a wonderful weekend and get lots and lots of exercise!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Junk Food Junkies Unite

I am a recovering addict. No. Not drugs. Junk food. I filled my body with it on a regular basis. Chocolate, soda, fast food, chips and any other thing I could find that I thought tasted good. Junk food fueled my life. It wasn’t a very healthy choice for me. As a matter of fact, the various junk food that I was consuming were the very things that I disposed of when I started cleaning the “yuckie” things out of my life.

First went sodas. Pepsi was my drug of choice. Nothing could compare. Oh how good it tasted straight from the fridge. Icy cold. Smooth and sweet. When I was stressed, I could down a whole one without a breath. I still crave them. More than anything that I have tossed out. Pepsi still haunts me.

Then, I got rid of all packaged sweets. You know, twinkies, candy bars, Oreos. Ahhh the good stuff. Queenie didn’t mess around when she needed a fix. Nope. Hard core baby.  Shortly after the processed sweets, I tossed fast food all together. It was no wonder that my ass was huge and I felt like garbage. Now, junk food is not even a thought for me because I know it will make me feel like hell. It’s something that I am not willing to sacrifice. No matter how good that Big Mac looks.

This cute little story is to intro our next contest. We are officially launching the Just Say No campaign here at Wicked Weighs. We aren’t talking drugs this time either. We are talking junk food. To join us in this fight, you need to do a couple of things.

First, commit. Make a pledge to yourself to rid your bod of junk. We don’t expect anyone to give it up overnight. Junk food taste great. You can’t just forget it. Or maybe you can. Most won’t be able to go cold turkey though. You just need to make the decision to start making better decisions. When you crave that Whooper with cheese and you pull up in the drive through, make the choice to pick something healthier instead of that ewwy burger. You can do it.

Second, you need to fire up your support system. That is where we come in. Come here. Post about your struggles..and your victories so we can cheer you on. That is what we are all about.

Third, post that cute little Junk food booger banner from below on your blog or website and then come back to this post and tell us that you jumped on our junk food band wagon.

Once you are done, email me your snail mail addy - please do not post it in the comments - and I will be sending you a beautiful “Just Say No” fridge magnet so you can keep yourself under control at home. Yep. You heard me, PRIZES!!! Right now, I have 20 of these bad boys ready to send but if I need more, I will most certainly order them. Oh and if you totally hate the junk food banner below, you can select one of our other buttons from our links page to post at your place. The important thing is just to commit.

Cut and paste this code:

<a href="http://ourwickedweighs.com"><img 
src="http://ourwickedweighs.com/images/nobooger.jpg"
border="0" alt="Our Wicked Weighs"></a>

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

At What Point Did You Give Up on Yourself?

As I watched the Biggest Loser last night, the question asked by Ali really stuck with me… You have to ask yourself this one thing -

At what point did you give up on yourself?

At some point we all gave up on ourself otherwise we wouldn’t be in this position of being overweight, unhappy, and looking for a way to change our lives.  For me, I can’t remember a particular day or even year, but yet, it slowly happened over time.  Just year after year I gained a little more at a time for numerous reasons.  I was a little heavy in high school.  Probably about a size 11 in high school which by the way I would kill for today - but at the time I thought I was huge.  I knew I was pretty though and had boyfriends and so forth so I felt okay about myself.  It was when I moved out on my own at 16 that I started eating out a lot and drinking a lot which led me to eat bad things.  Of course I just figured it was because I didn’t want to cook, but it was most likely sadness that filled my life that should not have been there.  I won’t go into details but suffice it to say I had a hard teenage life.  When I went to college I gained even more because I honestly didn’t care about how I looked.  I used to just say I was “sporty” and give excuses like not wanting to wear skirts and high heels but really it was because I knew I didn’t look good in them.  I never worried about what I ate - I didn’t know I was supposed to.  I ate what I want when I wanted it.  Maybe it was laziness, maybe it was ignorance, but it was there… complete and utter denial.  When I got pregnant in college it just gave me an excuse to eat more.  I remember one night I went to McDonald’s and Burger King at the same time and sat in my car eating it so no one would see me.  I figured I was eating for 2 but mainly it just made me happy. 

I continued to gain not caring about what I looked like until I overheard my best friend at the time talking to his friends saying how fat I was.  Wow - was I shocked… Over time I eventually lost the weight, but it came back on again because I never learned to appreciate me or why I should be healthy.  Again, I gave up on myself and allowed myself to be fat.  I didn’t care, nor did I have any good reason to be thin.  I always thought I had to have a reason… but the reason is to be happy with myself.  The best thing about the Biggest Loser is that they learn to love themselves again, and I think that is the only way we won’t give up on ourselves and our bodies.  Right now I don’t love myself, I have given up on myself all over again… but I don’t want it to be this way any longer.  And it shouldn’t be this way for you. 

There is no reason that each and every one of us shouldn’t want to lose weight to make ourselves happier and healthier.  If you are having setbacks that’s okay - just don’t give up on yourself like I did a couple of months ago.  Again, I gave up and figured I was just destined to be fat my whole life.  But that isn’t true - I’m allowing myself to be fat.... Well not anymore.  If any of you saw last night’s Biggest Loser I’m sure like me, you are getting back to what you need to do to lose weight. 

As of right now - I am giving up my subscription to Weight Watchers.  I don’t need it, and I’m not following it.  I love WW, believe me I really do - but I don’t need it.  I think for some and for me it is a great plan, but it allows me too much freedom in what I eat.  I am constantly basing my points around what kind of junk food I am eating.  I’m constantly going over my points and not caring.  I am a big believer in Weight Watchers and again, I think it is an amazing plan… but I need to do this on my own.  I need to lose weight by LEARNING how to eat right and exercise more.  I need to motivate myself, because at the end of it, once I reach my goal if I don’t learn that for myself I will forever be giving up on myself.  I’m going to take a page from Shelah’s book and I’m going to print out some healthy meal plans for myself that I like, look up yummy low-fat recipes, and take it from there.  My walls will be a shrine to my weight loss, and I for one am NOT going to give up on myself again. 

I ask you all - Why did you give up on yourself?  And what is going to stop that from happening again?  I want you all to think about it and decide that when you read this you will never give up on yourself again.  Say it out loud, and make it a point to believe it.  Say it everyday if you have to.  But in order to lose the weight we want, we must be willing to believe in ourselves. 

I’m going to get on the treadmill right now in fact!  Have a great day everyone!