Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Reason #1,789,249 To Lose Weight

Right now there is only one reason to lose weight for me - besides being healthy of course…

Bathing suit season is fast approaching!  OMG my son wants to go back to the beach.  Now last year I went, and although I did indeed wear a bathing suit, I didn’t feel “comfortable” in it.  I always felt like I was getting stared at by the skinny bitch sitting next to me.  I felt like I was being laughed at by Biff the buff guy.  Granted they probably didn’t think twice about me, but I felt like they did.  This year I’m determined to not look like such a complete whale on the beach.  My goal for my summer trip to the beach is 200 pounds.  I’m not even sure that is doable - its about 35 pounds before July.  That gives me a little under 4 months.  Actually now that I type that out, it is pretty doable! 

I know I have been preaching about goals, and so far I haven’t really set any.  So, now I’m officially setting a goal.  To be 200 pounds by the time I hit the beach!  I know to some of you that is like - OMG - you’d go to the beach at 200 pounds?  Well, when you’ve been 254 and know what you look like - hell yeah I’d go to the beach at 200!  For someone who felt like a beached whale at 180 might not understand, but the women who are 300+ would look at 200 and feel absolutely skinny.  That is the difference.  It is more about the confidence level you have when you lose the weight, then actually what you look like.  For me, 170 is my confidence level.  I eventually want to get to 140, but at 170 I have always felt like I looked fabulous!  For other people their confidence level may be at an all time high when they are heavier or skinner… it all really depends on where you start. 

There is a certain fear about putting on a bathing suit and up until last year I hadn’t done it for many many years.  But something came over me - I didn’t want to stop my life or take anything away from my son just because I have managed to mess up my life.  So, I bought what I considered to be a very flattering skirtini and headed to the beach.  It wasn’t so bad either.  I didn’t exactly prance around playing volleyball and so forth, but I didn’t feel the need to sit on my towel wearing a winter coat either.  Plus it helped that I was in a different state too

Summer is fast approaching people, and it is time to narrow down your summer goals.  If you want to be on that beach in that “to die for bikini” you best get cracking!