Wednesday, February 20, 2008

The Biggest Loser

Has anyone been watching this show?  I love it!  Every time I watch it I feel like I could run 5 miles, lol… but alas I never seem to Well tonight I had even more motivation to lose the weight.  I’m not sure what week we’re in, but I know its pretty far along in the season and I just figured something out!

Do you know the brothers Mark and Jay?  It wasn’t until tonights episode when they sent him home that I realized that I knew him!  I had always thought he looked familiar but I just figured he looked like every other guy from Mass that I used to know.  Turns out that we went to the same Catholic school.  He was in a grade ahead of me, and since our school was so small (25 people or so in each class total), we used to hang out together!  One Halloween party we were playing spin the bottle and I had to kiss Mark Kruger in a closet for like 7 minutes How funny is that!  He had gained so much weight that I totally didn’t recognize him (well, I did think he looked familiar) but when he started to lose the weight the nagging feeling that I really knew him got even more so.  I remember having gym with him, and seeing him walk down the hall in his catholic school uniform.  It’s funny, as soon as I saw his family, I was like “I KNOW HIM!” See, even in 8th grade, Mark looked pretty good!  He was sort of gawky, but still cute.  Gosh we went through 7 years of school together and I don’t remember him ever being overweight. 

I guess it just hit me tonight that if he can do it, I can too! I don’t know why, maybe because I remember him way back when, maybe because I’m totally jealous that he is doing it on the show that I want to be on, lol, but still.. I can do this! 

Last week if you remember I decided to start from scratch and begin again and do better.  Well, not so much this week! OMG - today I just went crazy.  I found a bag of chocolate left over from Halloween that I had stashed so I wouldn’t eat it.  A FULL bag.  Guess where that entire bag is now? Yepper, in my tummy :( It was a mix of Hershey’s chocolates - I ate probably close to 30 miniatures easily.  I was like a woman obsessed - I just couldn’t stop!  Now I feel huge and when added up my points total was about 30 - 1 for each point I ate.  WTF is that about? I don’t even LIKE chocolate!  But yet, I binged and I could not stop.  I then almost got into my car to go to the store to get some ice cream.  I think I have finally lost it.  I didn’t walk today as part of my couch to 5K - I just spent the day eating.  It’s not time for my period, I’m not depressed, I’m not sad, I’m not bored… I’m just eating. 

Tomorrow I will just have to get back on track.  I feel like I have been depriving myself for so long, but i haven’t been losing weight so I couldn’t have been depriving myself too much!  Ugh - I feel like the Biggest Loser now :(

Anyhow - this just goes to show you that everyone can have a bad day (or a bad few months) but it is what we do the next day that will really make the difference.  Wednesday I am going to take my before pictures, and I’m even going to show my tummy - even if I can’t win a prize I have to find some way to motivate myself into losing weight and getting back on track!!