Friday, June 13, 2008

Happy Friday the 13th

Today is Friday the 13th. Superstitious day for some. Not for me. I wasn’t even scared to get on the scale. That has to do with the way I have been feeling lately. I got the skinny happening. I just FEEL it. This week has been part of a LONG series of weeks for me too. Just lots of stressful things. This week, the only working out I did was my TKD classes twice and then the mattress rumba with my gorgeously wonderful hub. Heh. I ate like a horse too for the most part. But...I still felt thin. Kind of strange huh?

I spent this week setting on my butt more than not. I was cleaning out my family room/office. Weeding through the bazillion files on my laptop. Including photos. I also had to get things ready for a contest that is starting tomorrow on a certain web site - which lead me back through posts that I had written MONTHS ago. Posts where I had posted my weight. Each week. So this week, I didn’t care what the scale said. I saw the results of my diligence. I saw how fat I was. How horrible I felt. It was right in front of me. In my face. Do you know what I did? I laughed. I celebrated. Because, this week, I FEEL thin.

Does anyone else have days or weeks like this? Where you just feel like a really hot vixen of sexy? Nothing can make you feel like you are a fat cow, no matter how hard it tries? I have had days like this...but never WEEKS.

Oh and btw, you all need to hop on the scale. Come share your news. Good or bad. We are going to celebrate efforts this week. So as long as you are trying...I have my pompoms ready. I am 2 ounces up from last week...but I haven’t poo’d yet today. I am gonna weigh myself after I do that and call that the official one. Happy Friday the 13th everyone. 

Friday, June 06, 2008

Weigh In Friday!

Quite frankly, lately I have been up and down about weighing in but this week I kicked some ass!  I lost 3.4 pounds I could have even lost more by now because I weighed in early, because you know, I just felt… lighter, lol.  I wish I could say that it was all that exercise but nope - it was better food choices.  I really made a very conscious effort to watch everything I ate.  I worked very hard at my portion control and not snacking mindlessly.  I did walk 2 days but it wasn’t anything to write home about… about 30 minutes each time.  But I felt good that I made that effort as well as constantly checking my food intake.  I ate home this week all except one day which I’m sure made a huge difference as well. 

My water intake is something to be desired though - normally I’m a 6 bottle a day water drinker but I admit to doing something I haven’t done regularly in 3 years plus… I bought a bottle of soda this week, and I drank it.  The whole thing.  A couple of months ago I had a soda at my friend Millie’s house (yes Millie - I’m talking about you and your diet coke, lol) and I just couldn’t stop thinking about.  Occasionally I would get a soda while going out rather than getting unsweetened ice tea which I normally do.  Then it became a little more than occasionally - like a soda every 2 weeks.  Now I actually bought a bottle.  I’m doomed! OMG when you stop drinking soda so long you forget how wonderful it tastes - the bubbly fizz, the super taste, and just the thrill of seeing it in my refrigerator made me realize that just like an alcoholic can’t have just one drink, I can’t drink even one soda. 

So, I’m going back to sodas anonymous and giving it up yet again.  Granted I surely am not as bad as I used to be I can feel the need to get more soda than before, and that is pretty scary.  So, I’m officially committing to all of you that I will not even drink one soda - not even at Millie’s house

So, enough about me… how did you all do this week?  I predict big weight losses - so c’mon and tell me how you did already!!

Friday, May 30, 2008

Well, It’s Friday

You all know what that means. Weigh in. The past few weeks, I have been dreading Fridays. Mainly because my scale has just been teetering back and forth between 170 and 169. It’s been torturing me. BADLY.  Well, after a few days of pondering my self worth and my ability to actually not give up on this life I have going for myself, I made some realizations. Quite simply, I just need to stop making excuses for myself.

When things get hard for me, I turn to food. I am an emotional eater. That hasn’t changed just because I cleaned up my diet. I still get all wimpy and head for my fridge. It’s a habit that I have had for 30+ years. I can’t imagine that it’s just going to go away. Well, the past few weeks, I have slipped back to the self doubtful, wimpy gal that I used to be. Only I didn’t reach for Pepsi this time. I just have been eating non fricken stop. Not good when you are trying to make that scale move south. Ya know?

I am in the process of reading this really cool book. “Does this Clutter Make my Butt Look Fat” Seriously. That is the name of it. I read pretty much everything. Lately, especially if it has to do with health or weight loss. This book, pretty much could have been written about me. The author has a premise that life clutter is directly tied to body clutter. If you think about it, it’s true. When you are stressed out, what is usually the cause? Too much happening in your life. You feel out of control. Right? Now, think about how you usually eat when you feel stressed. Yeah. Me too. You don’t put much stock into what is going in to your bod. You just eat. That normally blows your “diet” right out of the water. Then you feel bad that you slipped or cheated. Which causes you more stress. Which adds to your yucky thoughts. Vicious cycle right? Only, I never saw it this way before. Until I started reading this book. One of those lights shining down from the heavens moments for Queenie.

So, I have spent the better part of this week working out my clutter. I made lists of the work crap I needed to do. ALL of it. So I could just focus on the list and not worry about forgetting anything. I have also been weeding out areas of my house that were making me insane. I am not finished BUT I do feel better. Much better already. And to top it off, I got on the scale this am and guess what? I finally dropped more than an ounce or two. I lost 4. Putting me right smack at 169 even. I am thrilled. That puts me at my lowest weight in two months which is lower that I have been in the past few weeks. I am on the downslide once again. I am thrilled. So, how are you all doing?

On another note: Where in the hell is Erin? She is our Friday post gal. Woman, I hope you aren’t here because you found some dreamy non psycho dude last night and he came over and made wild passionate monkey sex with you all night long and now you are lost in dreamland. I couldn’t bear to think of anything bad happening to you. Please let it be for monkey sex. Hope you are ok girlie.